the year unfolded. I needed to stop engaging with and enabling dysfunctional behaviour with some of my loved ones. I needed to stop wishing for my life to be just what
is was before I became unwell .......
I needed to stop allowing people to invade my personal space and I needed to stop letting people take me for granted. I needed to stop hoarding, I needed to stop worrying so much and I needed to stop feeling sorry for myself.
So I spent a lot of time during the year unravelling these,
and other awarenesses that were coming to me, little by
little, being kind and gentle with myself along the way.
This year, the guiding star word that came to me was Freedom. Another unexpected word. At first I thought of
it in political terms. A friend described it well, “You tend to think of banding together. To over throw a tyrannical government from a reign of terror or busting Nelson Mandela out of prison”. She has a great way of putting things!
But as I reflected on my word, looked up definitions and quotes and generally googled and journaled about it, it began to take on a different shape for me. I wasn’t in a hurry, I believed clarity would come to me in time.
And it did. Unexpectedly and all of a sudden. I was reading some blog posts of Leonie Dawson’s and there it was!
It is time.
It’s time for me
to go out into the world.
To find my wings
and be set free.
I have friends to make
hearts to touch
songs to sing
and love to live.
Yes! This is how it fits for me right now. This is what freedom means for me. So this will be my song to myself
this year! Thank you Leonie.
Looking at it now, I can see that it all makes sense. Last year was my year of making space. I needed to recognise that some of the causes of my stress and unhappiness were actually in my control. I needed to let go of the things that were no longer serving me to be able to create this space, to be able to make room for a sense of freedom to flow in this year.
Freedom - to grow wings and take flight, into all that spaciousness I created last year!
It all makes sense now. And I am glad. And hopeful. And, yes, even starting to feel a little bit free!
Do you have a guiding star word for 2013? I’d love to hear about it! Click on comments (above this text, right hand side) to share with us all. Or if you are shy (which is ok!) you can always send me a private message at Say Hello!
I look forward to hearing from you.
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own guiding star word click here.
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to make a star for your word
(mine's below!) click here.